Ok.. we are back, sort of.

I'm working on redoing layouts MY WAY. I dislike MT's styles and rigid designs. I want my style, my designs, my way.

Disillusioned will be frequently changing. One minute it may work and the next look as if it's all messed up. It's my way of doing things. I will tweak until it's correct. It will take time and patience.

Hopefully it'll all be settled this weekend and then I'll start on Otherside.

In the mean time... I'll try to post. Laters.

Meet Demon Eyes Kyo, also known as the thousand man slayer. He's an excellent warrior and watching him kill people is always a thrill.

So this is the current layout. I like it for the moment. I've been wanting to do something with this wallpaper for quite awhile. I applied an exclusion to it which is why it sort of looks like a negative image.

I've decided not to import the old entries. I had issues with them the first time I tried and they weren't linking up properly. So I think since I am so used to starting new it shouldn't be an issue.

Enjoy and thanks for being so patient.

So here's the latest pic.. taken last week after getting ready for work:

Laters!

The Kid seems to think that she has pnuemonia. She says her ribs hurt and she thinks she has a fever and that she's not feeling well at all. She wanted me to take her to the doctor.

Now when I had pnuemonia, years ago when she was just a baby a few months old, I slept for three days almost straight. The only reason I got up during that time was to go to the bathroom, get something to drink and then pass out again. When I moved I was in pain, when I breathed I was in pain and this morning she was moving around fine. She jumped to pull her jeans up and was almost crying because I wasn't going to let her stay home.

They changed our medical insurance to the point that if I take her to a place like Immediate or Urgent Care I'd have to pay a co-pay of 35 dollars. If I can avoid going to the doctor for any reason at this point in time, I will.

So, I sent her to school. She has to read a speech about drugs over the PA system today. I am sure that if she is feeling extremely bad, and has a fever, the teacher will send her to the nurse's office and they will take her temperature. ( I don't have a thermometer in the house due to 4 being lost over the years because the Kid likes to take her temperature constantly. )

So I will sit at work and see if I get a phone call. If I get a phone call then in turn I will call my mother because she is currently off of work to go and get her. Hopefully she'll be at home and can do so. I really can't afford to miss work. I still have time that I can use but the whole point of the matter is that there isn't anyone to cover me. And the new girl hasn't fully been trained on the front desk yet and is still having issues learning the phones ( Which isn't a training or learning issue, the phones are just complicated and a pain in the ass. )

Well. I am gonna get off of here. I am ready for work and I want to warm up the car. Psha.. as if that really warms up the car. Laters.

Apparently there are some issues with the coding. I am going through it line by line to find out where it is. Until it is solved, obviously, the menu will be whereever it wants to.

More Later.

Ok so we are allowed to dress up this year again for Halloween at work. We aren't allowed to be anything naughty or obscene. I've decided that a gypsy would make a good costume for me. I've got an ankle length skirt, black, and I've got a couple of different tops I can wear with it. I'll curl the hell out of my hair and wear a scarf in it. I've got 'danglie' earrings. The only thing I really lack are bracelets, but I might be able to borrow some from my daughter and her friends. I'm sure they won't mind.

I'll definitely post pics when all this happens. I haven't decided if I am going to wear my heels ( the non-open-toed ones that bother my feet but slip off easily ) or if I'm going to wear my boots. I suppose it depends on the weather. If it rains then I'll definitely wear my boots, I can't stand wet feet. Or wet hose.

Today was absolutely one of the worst days I have had. I'm sick of the whining and I'm tired of being considered an enemy because I talk to the one girl at work all the time now. At least she is open and honest about who she is and what she wants and trying to get there. She doesn't whine and cry and stomp her feet when she doesn't get something she wants. She takes a new route, starts a new campaign and tries again. She inspires me. She makes me realize that I am also worth taking the time to improve myself and force those who pay me to look out because when I leave... I honestly think that a lot of things are going to get messed up.

I get told I'm snippy or that I'm mean when I state something honestly anymore. I don't care though. This is by people who can't accept the truth of reality. I can say that the sky is blue and they would have to disagree. Lately the one girl decides that she 'needs to stay away' from me because I am being snippy. Well sweetheart, get used to it, because it's not going away. I refuse to lie down and be walked on anymore. So I will be snippy. I'm not biting anyone's head off. I'm not yelling and screaming or physically hurting anyone. I'm being snide, sarcastic. But in my opinion I'm not! I simply say something that would make most people I talk to laugh! Ohwell. Their loss, right? I don't know. What I do know is that if I don't let some of the irritation out once in awhile I start to seriously hurt. Neck, shoulders and now in the chest area. Everything tightens up, everything starts to hurt. I can't move properly, I can't breathe. It is overwhelming.

But tonight I am feeling much better. The Kid is at a friend's house. I had a nice hot shower, a decent dinner, and I'm watching tv without distraction. I'm off. Laters.