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If I won the lottery I would...

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There's a lot of crazy going on now that the Mega Millions are up to 640 Million Dollars.  That's like having Uncle Scrooge's Money Bank, right? You could swim in that.

I joined the pool here at work and I'll most likely go and spend 5 or 10 more bucks on tickets of my own just in case.  I wouldn't want to miss out on the biggest jackpot ever. And, hey, every dollar boosts it higher, right?

A lot of people are telling journalists what they would do if they won the jackpot, so I thought what the heck, I can do that too, but here, where it belongs, in my world.

If I won the jackpot, I would take the lump-sum because I wouldn't want to have to will the future payments to my daughter and her cat.  Just give me the money and go away.

The very first thing I would do is pay off my student loans and put half the money away into several trust accounts (gotta fund my daughter's college career, yo).

The second thing I'd do is go find myself a little house on 5 acres of land and buy it, then put up a fence if it didn't have one. Little house meaning 3 bedrooms and an office with a patio or deck.  Nothing huge.  Something manageable.  I wouldn't pay it off right away either but it would be substantially paid down.

I'd buy my daughter and I better vehicles to help reduce our carbon imprint on the earth.  Mother Nature likes that sort of thing.  

After all that is said and done and debts are paid, I'd take 1/3 (yes, ONE THIRD) of the money left and donate it to charities I think are worth it (yes I'd be looking into them beforehand).

Would I quit my job? Most likely.  I'd take classes in things I'm interested in as well, furthering my education into things I love like writing and art and graphic design and photography.  Anything creative would do as long as it makes me smile.  

Yes, I'd help out friends and family but not to the point of breaking my bank.  Helping is one thing... supporting to the point of ruination of oneself is quite another.

Have a great day and good luck to all in the lottery.  Perhaps the odds will ever be in our favor... (gah, I did it again!)

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Other Issues vs Allergies

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I know a lot of people with allergies.  A *lot* of people.  I feel bad for people with allergies, even ones that aren't all that bad.  I know they have sinus pressure and pain, sneezing, runny nose/watery eyes, itchy throat and if anything else happens to be going wrong physically, it's twice as bad.  I have issues, not allergy issues really.  Once in awhile I'll get a little sneezy if things get too dusty but other than that, allergies can stay the hell away.

Today I'm feeling a touch dizzy. Mostly because it's DemonWeek and I haven't been taking my vitamins, which have iron in them, on a regular basis.  So I'm feeling really tired, shaky and tired.  Signs of being anemic due to iron loss increase while it being DemonWeek.  I just love DemonWeek.

Every now and again if I sleep wrong or take on too much weight too often on my left shoulder I wake up unable to move, so I don't try not to do it.  It's not always that simple though and every now and then I am in considerable pain for a few days using ice packs to numb it away.

You can't do that when it comes to allergies, though.  You can drug yourself up but not all the problems go away, you always have something left behind making you go crazy or the meds cause you to be hyper or drowsy, so the entire day is either spent running around accomplishing nothing or trying your damnedest not to fall asleep, again, accomplishing nothing.

I just can't imagine having to go through that every day for 3 - 4 months straight, or, all year around, if you have different allergies for different seasons or animals.  It would be absolute hell, every single day.  I can combat the anemia with iron supplements and make the tiredness and the dizzy spells go away.  It takes time and I tend to not be focused while I'm in this feeble state of mind, but it goes away and can be kept away by continuing with the supplements.

All of you that have allergies, bless you, bless you, bless you.  I couldn't fathom spending one hour let alone a lifetime

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The Hunger Games

The Hunger Games (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Sometime last week I grabbed a copy of The Hunger Games to read and watched the movie.  I wasn't sure how it would be with all the extreme hype about the book I'd never heard of and all of a sudden it has a movie.  This sort of appearance generally puts me in the whole 'it's going to be bad bad bad' mindset and while it wasn't overall bad, it wasn't good either.

The Book

The book was rushed and in my opinion, poorly written.  Nowhere near as bad as some young adult books I have read previously. For example, I tried reading a series that made it feel as if though the oxygen were being sucked from the room.  This was every thought and conversation the teenager had, a runaway train and oxygen deprivation.  I stopped reading when my daughter started speaking that way to get a break.

Most of Hunger Games was a fast read, there were some slow parts where you wondered if Katniss was actually capable of making it, but then again, she's the main character and killing off main characters in books and movies tend to get you blackballed from your readers so you know she makes it. Trying to figure out how.. well that's where reading it makes it interesting.  She spends a lot of time up trees, sleeping in trees, belting/tying herself into trees, climbing down the trees. 

The best killing ability she has is killing when she doesn't think about it.  Katniss automatically kills a little boy who killed Rue, no thought, no processing, she did it and it was over.  I don't recall if she retrieved the arrow that killed the boy, but if she did then you know she was over the whole 'I have to kill people to live thing'.

If you are able to ignore the blatant disregard for grammar and style, you can read this book.  If you're going to pause every time and have the urge to throw the book or kindle (or whatever you use) then you're going to want to read it fast and do your best to disregard the grammar.  The book still wasn't good and the writing style made it worse the best way to get through it if you really want to read it is as fast as possible.


The Movie

The movie wasn't all that great either and the thing was 132 minutes long!  That doesn't even include the credits!  The best parts of the movie were watching Haymitch work getting sponsors for Katniss and the Gamemakers.  I don't think Haymitch even bothered to try for Peeta, but then again all he seemed to do after saving Katniss was hide.  It was probably the best idea he had since he wasn't sure if he would make it or not.  The Gamemakers were so cold and calculating.  These people are killing children for a living and they are just going about their business, starting wild fires and building killing machine animals as if it's just another day at the office.  For them, it is.  You see absolutely no remorse on any of the gamemakers, only the Game Master himself when he realizes he's about to lose the game to a witty, sarcastic hate-filled 16yo girl who outsmarted him.

I truly enjoyed how they portrayed the people of the Capitol.  They were outlandish and fabulous and absolutely insane.  How else could you think of them? They were not only OKAY with killing children but made it their lifes work to dress them up for the world they knew to see, to send them to their deaths looking fabulous and nothing like who they really truly are.  Do they ever stop to think 'this could be my child?'  No.  Because if they did stop and think such things they would never be capable of doing what they have decided to do in order to get paid and be famous.  To be famous you have to send children to their death.  They are okay with this, it's sickening and the movie makes you want to shake each and every one of them for accepting this.


Now, my total opinion of both book and movie together.  If you read the book and then watch the movie (which is always **always** the best way to go) you'll actually find it enjoyable. This does not include you morons who were shocked that Rue and Thresh were black, either.  This is for people who actually READ the book, not leaf through it and say 'oooh it's so fantastic, I must see the movie' then make an idiot of yourself by throwing tantrums.

Reading the book puts you inisde Katniss' head which is exactly where you want to be.  Watching the movie gives you an advantage because as you are watching you know each and every thought that is flowing through her brain.  They did fairly well sticking to the storyline.  I was upset that Madge didn't make an appearance.  I think it would've been so much better, it's not like they couldn't have worked it in with how much time they already had in the finished product!  The characters looked (for the most part) the way I pictured them in my head.  I was unsure of how to picture Cinna because I just wasn't sure which way to go, how to make his voice.  I kept getting Prince believe it or not. (I know, I know!)

I really think the movie and the book go hand in hand.  They show you what you aren't sure how to picture.  You get to see what happens to the Game Master when everything goes down.  When you start the second book you can visualize who you are reading about by taking it from the movie that much easier. 

So, finally, while I dislike them apart and on their own, they do compliment each other quite well.   Don't read the book and not see the movie and if you haven't read the book forget even bothering with the movie.  Got it? Good.  And... may the odds ever be in your favor. (Second and LAST time I use that line.)

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Back to Basics

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So today I started a post and didn't get to save it, but thanks to Movable Type's auto-recovery feature I can exit a window and recover that post on any computer I login to.  I adore this feature, truly I do, until it fucks up.  Today it fucked up, royally, that's the only way to say it.  According to the documentation the auto-save feature kicks in when your cursor leaves the entry editing box for 30 seconds or more.  While your mouse is off doing other things elsewhere, this feature will kick in every 30 seconds until you click into the entry box again.

I had a fantastic post reviewing the Hunger Games, Book vs Movie and how each of them were good but not great in their own way.  I had so many fantastic points made.  I had started the post earlier in the day and exited out, to have it recovered here at home for me to finish.  I didn't get a moment to hit that save button earlier.  Being the multitasker I am I was flipping back and forth between the entry and twitter and some other things, going over the post, reading it under my breath, hoping it flowed okay.  Hoping my points were brought across in a way that were understood clearly.  I wouldn't want anyone taking things the wrong way. (Gag, okay, I really don't care, there is an X in the upper right-hand corner if you dislike what I have to say).

Anyway, I wanted to pop in a couple of links to other reviews and when I did that, using Zemanta, it erased my entire freaking post, auto-saved because my cursor was not currently present in the box and BANG, post gone.  Completely removed, no undo present, just grayed out and mocking me.  Imagine that, just like a mockingjay, I suppose. Sigh, references, references.  It's bad enough I actually used the phrase 'And may the odds be *ever* in your favor' today as a comment somewhere on G+.  Yeah, I'm on G+, I'm cool like that.

Searching file folders on my server, checking the database and posting on the forums hasn't gotten me anywhere at this point.  I'm a tad irked.  Just a tad, mind you.  The post can be rewritten.  This is why people write their posts in other places, like MS Word, save it, revise it, proof it and then post it.  Perhaps I need to do that.  It would have made things a teensy bit easier.

Goodnight. I shall contemplate a brand new post in my hot steamy shower and then some more while I sleep.  Or not.  
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Little Lady told me about these psychological tests they took at school in her psychology class. She brought home the paper that had her results on it and the tests happen to be online. So what did I do? I went to take the tests, obviously. I’m not all that surprised with the results either… Why not take a test or three for yourself and see if you belong in the looney bin yet?

Oh, yes and the test right below? I have a golden brain… which is what some silly app already told me on her iTouch. Basically it means I can think logically or creatively. That means that I can torture you in a creative way and then logically dispose of your remains, never to see the light of day again. Alright, alright… so I am not currently plotting that in the physical realm, however the fictional world is my playground.

Brain Lateralization Test Results
Right Brain (46%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain.
Left Brain (52%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain
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Jungian Functions Test Results
Te (Extroverted Thinking) |||||| 25%
Ti (Introverted Thinking) |||||||||||||| 53%
Ne (Extroverted Intuition) |||||||||| 37%
Ni (Introverted Intuition) |||||||||||||||| 61%
Se (Extroverted Sensing) |||||||||||| 42%
Si (Introverted Sensing) |||||||||||| 41%
Fe (Extroverted Feeling) |||||||||| 35%
Fi (Introverted Feeling) |||||||||||||||| 63%
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Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||| 22%
Schizoid |||||||||||||||| 66%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||| 70%
Antisocial |||||||||||| 46%
Borderline |||||| 22%
Histrionic |||||| 26%
Narcissistic |||||||||| 34%
Avoidant |||||| 30%
Dependent |||||| 22%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||| 42%
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Yesterday I was kind enough to do my best to keep my mouth shut.  When I get irritated, angry, hot-tempered, for no reason whatsoever in the morning then I know it's going to be a day that I need to speak little and hear less.  My reasoning behind this is that Golden Rule people tend to speak of and then completely ignore to the point of catastrophe.

So I kept my lips zipped shut as best I could and did a little whining to a coworker who I listen to when she needs the same type of spouting off the 'little things are getting to me' list.  There are a lot of people who completely disregard the 'treat others as you wish to be treated' but in all honesty the biggest one is 'if you have nothing nice to say, say nothing' that gets me into real trouble.  Anytime I am questioned about something I tend to snap as it is, on a day I have to exert harder pressure on that choke collar I keep on my demon.

We had someone out of the office due to illness yesterday and I had to go into their office to pull files.  Anyway, lately I have been in the 'if I'm somewhere I'm not normally supposed to be then not only do I have reason but permission' type of attitude.  In other words, you have no right to question my presence anywhere in the office, period, especially if you are not in a supervisory/managerial roll of any kind. Period.

I was questioned awhile back when cleaning off personal items someone no longer with us had completely filled the hard drive of (or just about, very literally) with personal photos, videos, etc and had to burn them onto discs and make sure they burned onto those discs by testing on my system.  The laptop was in the 'empty cube' I covet and so I was in there working on it while the person that day using it was in meetings (they knew, it wasn't theirs so they didn't care).  I got questioned 5 times, twice jokingly, about what I was doing in there, to the laptop, why, who told me, etc, by people who had no right to question me.

Let me tell you, this sort of thing gets old, but it continues to repeat itself.  I was working on a laptop and on tech support with the company that provides our wireless cards for the sales people when they are out of the office, so they can use email and put orders in, etc.  I got questioned while I was doing that and again, none of their business.

Three people tried to find out what I was doing in the office I had permission to be in yesterday and yes I did happen to snap at someone about it. 

  • "I'm doing my job."
  • "I'm working."
  • "Doing what I was asked to do."
  • "No, I'm not (insert person's name here)."

It simply boggles my mind that people seem to be so nosey that they have to know what I'm doing, why I'm doing it and for how long I'll be doing it, when technically, not only are they nowhere in the heirarchy of supervision of my position but to be completely honest it isn't any of their business.  Especially when I'm in an office that contains sensitive information and they don't work in the department that has access to that information.

I did my best not to snap at people but it's really hard when they tend to do stupid things and ask stupid questions that grate on my nerves.  I feel that if I am somewhere doing an assignment they should just stop in, say hey, ask how I am, and move on.  Instead of doing that I feel as if I'm being questioned by the Inquisition and that there isn't a right answer regardless of what I reply.

What are things that irritate you? Feel free to comment or trackback to here from a post of your own. 



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25again.jpgSo I dressed up and went out for my birthday last night, even though it's the highest drinking holiday in the world.  I had posted on Facebook that I was planning on going out and looking for ideas of where to go if anyone was interested.  I got a lot of lovely ideas from people I adore, however they were all out of state and until the Little Lady gets the teleporter to go to more places than Abu Daubi and actually have it capable of returning you from your destination back home again, that ended up being a no-go plan.  Other friends offered the use of their personal bar and even offered to install a stripper pole.  I wondered if there were going to be strippers for my birthday but didn't ask.  I wanted to go out in public and have fun, see the old hangout I used to go to once a month and find out what was new and exciting.

So, I did.  Unfortunately others who wanted to show up didn't due to issues they couldn't control.  The friend I went out with was more than capable to help me stay entertained between conversation and people watching, which is always a high point of any outing.  People watching is the best fun you can have when going out.  Trying to figure out what kind of crazy someone is should be made into a drinking game if it hasn't been already.  Other than the enormous amount of country music (which I got taken care of after awhile) the night was good.  4 drinks, lots of people, a little dancing and great conversation.  Plus earlier in the day I had a fabulous dinner with my daughter and her best friend.  Soon I'll be making an appointment for a facial over at Casal's.  I was supposed to go for a massage, but I think a refresher facial is exactly what I need.  With the leftover cash I can also buy a product or two that they use on my face to help with the dryness.  

My lovely sister also was kind enough to wake me up at 1 am on my birthday, the wrong time according to her since it was only midnight where she's at, to wish me a happy birthday.  My landlord showed up at 7:30 in the morning to do some work on the van and take it in for e-testing.  So I didn't get to sleep in on my birthday as I had planned, nor on this fine beautiful Sunday as much as I wanted to, but I do feel pretty good after such a long, looong, birthday.  

Make sure you take the time to celebrate with family and friends for your birthday, whether it's online, via text or phone, it'll make them feel better even if you don't get to be there physically, they know that you care.  It only takes 5 minutes.  Enjoy your birthday, each and every one you have.  Later.

Another Birthday

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birthday35-400h.jpgSo I'm now 25, alright.. alright, 35. But hey, I look pretty damn good for mid-thirties thanks to genes.  Took this photo last night before going out for dinner with a friend (if you're ever in Ohio, email me so I can give you the address to Blazin' Bills, their ribs are freaking amazing).  I love Photoshop so I used a few cool actions and so forth on the photo, but nothing too major.  If you saw me you'd recognize me.  (Mostly I just remove any redness in my cheeks...).

Tonight I'll be going out with friends to celebrate not only my wonderful birthday but also St. Patrick's Day.  I mean it's got to be great having such a huge drinking day for a birthday right?  Well, not really.  At least not when you're one of the more sober type people.

I also received some very lovely roses for my birthday thanks to the friend who took me out to dinner last night.  They are absolutely gorgeous!  

Everyone who goes out tonight have a fantastic time.  Make sure you utilize "desecrated drivers" or some other services in order to get home all safe and sound tonight.  That way you can enjoy it to the fullest again next year. 

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Every now and again I try to visit a site that is tweeted about on my feed from people I read and admire (and find hilarious, but then again why follow non-humorous people?).  At work there's a screwy firewall.  This firewall will let me go somewhere like say (who I refuse to utilize personally and never have) but it won't load any images on the main page.  Once I login I have access to seeing images, but otherwise it doesn't work properly.

The other day there was all kinds of internet and twitter drama regarding someone seriously plagiarizing the life of another and making money, getting free stuff, etc from doing so.  I tried to go to the site where the person harmed with this wrote a post regarding the entire incident.  I ended up seeing the firewall pop up and according to it, her site is considered porn.  Yep, Porn.  (If I mention the word Porn repeatedly in this post, do you think my readership will go up?)  I was shocked.  I mean, I never thought a parenting blog would be considered porn.

Today I tried clicking a link in my email to enter a contest from my bank to win $10,000.  The quicker I enroll the better my chances, right?  I thought so as well.  Yet again, up pops the stupid safety thing and it's considered porn.  So my bank is now apparently giving customers PORN and they are leaving me out.  The hell with them.  (My bank is not really giving people porn.)

I'm just irritated. I'm on my lunch and I can't do all that much personal stuff because of the stupid Esafe thing.  I'm not going to surf the net for porn (but apparently it thinks I am) but there are things that I do want to do. I'm damn glad I can reach the interface to blog.  Have a fantastic porn-free day (or should you rather it porn-filled make sure you share the links, eh?)... Later.
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